I am being tested in my life. My faith is becoming stronger the longer I have to wait for what I truly want. God knows that I want love, I want a partner in life. I'm sure he's tired of me repeating myself. I know this wait is essential for my growth, I am learning patience and that my way has only brought me heartache. It is hard to be alone, it's hard to let go of people you love even though they are poisoning your spirit, it is hard to have faith even when you know it's the only way you will be happy. I am learning to discipline myself, to do what is right and wait rather than do what feels good to me in the moment. IT IS A STRUGGLE. I can look back and see how far I have come, I have made progress and I am proud of myself. To backslide and revert to old behaviors and habits would only send me directly back to START. Pray for my strength and courage and PATIENCE on my journey, I need each and every one.
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